Reminders

I love when God sends us "reminders." Today I woke up at 5 am to a fussing Caleb. I was not happy to say the least. I got him a bottle, cuddled him and put him back in bed. He screamed until 7am when I woke up ANGRY and ticked off that I got less sleep and feel exhausted. I was not nice to my children who have no other form of communication or understanding of why they wake up early. I was also not nice to Brad. I sulked at home and ran late for work. When I got to work my first two patients didn't show up and I have had time to sit and think. In that time I decided that my attitude stunk and I needed to do something about it. So I pulled out my iphone and started reading some scripture. Then I turned on the TV to hear news about Haiti and the devastation there, then I start reading people's blogs and read about a mother who's aby is going to be born next week and he has a hernia in his diaphragm and has to have immediate surgery becasue it has caused his little lungs to not fully develop. Then I read about a little girl who is turning 3 in Feb. and she started having seziures and vomiting last week and was diagnosed with a brain tumor.
I am fighting back tears at work as I think about my attitude this morning and how I didn't take time to cuddle my children because I was tired! How selfish can I be? The Lord has given me two amazing little boys who are healthy and perfect and I complain because they wake up too early. These other families are in fear that their children may never wake up! All I want to do now is leave work and go get my boys and love on them! It is so hard to be a parent and it is hard to push my selfishness aside! I am so thankful that the Lord gave me this reminder this morning. There was a reason my patients didn't show up this morning and I am thankful.

So to Benjamin, Caleb and Brad... I owe you an apology! I will do my best to realize how much you each mean to me and be thankful for all the ways we are blessed!