1st Day back at school

My much dreaded day arrived... I returned to school. Last night was hard as I got all teary while rocking him. Then this morning I didn't feel like I got good time with him and then it was off to school in a hurry to beat traffic and get there on time, hoping I didn't forget anything that needed to go to Nana's house for the day. It was hard passing him on to my mom (who met me at school to pick him up). I felt my emotions rise as I knew my day would be without him. I am fearful that I am going to miss out on his milestones as a baby. I want to witness his first laugh, first word, first step and I am so worried it is going to happen on a day when I am not with him. I thought about him all day and longed to be with him. It tore at my heart strings all day to not be with him. I couldn't wait to get home and to just hold him and love on him. I am already sad about tomorrow being another day without him. I can feel that painful lump in my throat as thinking about not being with him makes me sad.
Well Benjamin was doing well sleeping through the night and then he decided to mix things up a little. He got up at 4am this morning WIDE AWAKE and in a great mood. He just wanted a little snack so he could get back to sleeping. I am praying that he will sleep through the night tonight as I have to get up at 6am anyway so I can be at school by 7am. UGH!
Brent left this morning to fly back to California. He came over last night to see Benjamin. He is really attached to the little guy and hated leaving him. He was very adamant that I make sure I send him pictures all the time. I hate that the next time he sees Benjamin he will be so much older. It is sad how time goes by so fast.
Today I got some news that a friend of mine who has been trying to have a second child for quite some time, and found out she was pregnant on Christmas Eve, had a miscarriage today. My heart is so broken for her. She and her husband have been so patient and trusting in God that he would allow them to have another child and it just pains me thinking of the agony they feel. I know they are wondering what in the world God is doing through all this and most of all why allow them to get pregnant after such a long trusting wait only to realize they lost the baby. The amazing thing in all of this is that they are the type of people who are going to praise God anyway even in their sadness and grief and they will trust him just the same. Praise God because he sees the bigger picture.
Well that is my update today. I will post some pictures in a day or so. I feel like he changes daily so I try to take at least one picture each day.